Last year was so not good. To be honest, it would be more accurate to say that last year was not good “either” since I have been saying that “last year was not so good” every year.
The root cause of my “not so good” feeling was that I spent whole the year idly every year, and I realized the fact when each year was over.
This is not that all years are the same. I was finally infected with COVID-19 last summer, so there were some changes in my life. Yet my life was still passive, and I have had a strong “same old” feeling. After all, COVID-19 did not change my life.
In addition, yesterday was the first day of the year, nevertheless I spent the day idly. I woke up in the afternoon and thought about picking up my New Year’s greeting cards from the mailbox, but I had never left my room. I thought about writing a blog but ended up not sitting down in front of my Mac all the day.
These accumulation of idly events from Day 1 will lead to another “not so good” year by the time of Day 365. I wonder if I can continue like this. I need to take some actions.
After some thoughts, I decided to buzz off my head. A buzz cut can be a refreshing enough to change of my mindset. It may seem trifling, but at least it gives me a sense of “having done something.”
It should be better than doing nothing at all.
Even if the “sense of having something done” turns out “sense of messing up something,” they are just a matter of good or bad, meaning that I have done something. It will lead to a break from the days of idleness, and will be a departure from “not so good”.
I will try to do something on my own initiative.
Admittedly this is something at low-level, but it is the first New Year’s resolution I have had in almost 30 years.